Spinning Round on Nothing New

I am full on into the life of work, commuting, connecting, trying to bring in business. Then I go home and try to put a dinner together- cook it, eat it, clean it. Then the bathing routines. It is comparable to the movie "Ground Hog Day" and I can't seem to change a thing. I am doing all of it but feel outside of it sometimes like an "out-of-body experience". Some days feel like I am hovering (and no I'm not huffing!) - Male menopause? I go to my acoustic guitar and play, finally having a good relationship with my guitar- a long standing marriage of 40 years. My two longest constants, the guitar and running. Why? I've been to lucky with the creative and physical stuff- "how about a little bit of luck with the financial -oh great spirit in the sky". Life can change in an instant - as I have seen the past years through others, and I think about that all the time now, which makes me pause as I breathe in the "present" at a much more concentrated dose. Finally, I can take out the guitar and play in public. I've never really thought of myself as accomplished- as I have heard so many guitarist that are and I had frequently put it away thinking "why am I doing this?" Presently, it is my saving grace to the unrest that I am living. I like "the process" of learning a new song, then changing the arrangement- and then if all goes well-finding out how to put your personality into it. Lastly, performing it for friends.

I guess I have to talk a little bit about running if we have to keep a thread moving forward.
I ran a great workout on Lakeshore Ave. Hard to believe there is enough room for me to run on the sidewalks with walker, runners and dogs on leash. I ran a 400, a 200, and 600 and a 300 meter sprints at about 85-90% at sub minute mile pace. Felt good to know I have not lost it- although I have to get to the track and run the 2:30 800 meter time trial. I am now confident that I can reach it- but, it will be a run of effort - no doubt.


I am concerned for Oakland and what the outcome of the jurors decide for Oscar Grant.
I love this great city and the people in it. I am a part of Oakland as I have been here since 83 and now have many good friends that live here because we love the climate, diversity and changes that have come in the last 20 years in Oakland. There are so many good parts of Oakland- but like the press- the only news that gets heard is the negative- not the positive.

Reaching over my music stand- I strained my back- an obvious repercussion for the strong runs that I had done the night before. As usual- taking chances and getting injured- I guess I never do learn. Getting older- lovely thought. No running this weekend- just yoga, healing and from the advice of friend "making a gratitude list". I needed to hear that.